Finally.

Okay, I swear I’m so fucking tired right now but I’ll just write up one entry before I turn in for the night.

My weekend was pretty well spent. As usual, my Saturday night ended up in the club.

But fuck, I was so glad that I made it to Dada Life. Met a few friends here and there.

I really enjoyed their set. Due to some personal issues which I couldn’t deal with earlier, my being in the club was always for the wrong reasons. But it’s not anymore. I love it for every right reasons I can think of.

Everything will be alright.

Productivity

It’s so nice to just hang out and sit in Starbucks. With my MacBook, doing stuff at my own time, own pace. Instrumental playing in the background, together with the sounds of coffee-making and people talking.

I feel like I can concentrate well, and I’m so much more productive in an environment like this. A proper table, chair and space to do my work.

I wish everyday’s like this.

But I have - no life. Literally.

Further Thoughts

Rational analysis is the mind’s attempt to justify what it already knows - but preferred it didn’t.

Basically, you’re lying to yourself.

Life+Thoughts

Every night before bed, I ask myself: What exactly am I doing?

Happenstance

It’s been awhile since.

And today, a brief mention about Garden State brought my thoughts back to you.

Sometimes I feel sad knowing things can never be the same again. And I wish I could see you like we used to. I don’t deny certain things if you were to ask me, but I guess it doesn’t really matter anymore. Thank god for the never-ending work I’m getting, I don’t think about anything related as much as I did before.

Anyway, on a side note, I really need to party soon.

To-Do

It’s a Sunday night, and after promising myself that I’ll do some work today, I ended up watching Breaking Dawn in the living room while eating my tidbits, and now I’m surfing the net aimlessly for random stuff while listening to Backstreet Boy’s “I Still…”.

My life needs to have some order, desperately. It has gone to the extend I think it’s not healthy anymore.

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I’m gonna pick up the pieces,
and build a lego house
If things go wrong we can knock it down

My three words have two meanings,
there’s one thing on my mind
It’s all for you

And it’s dark in a cold December,
but I’ve got ya to keep me warm
and if you’re broken I will mend ya and keep you sheltered from the storm that’s raging on now

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
and out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now

I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now, now

I’m gonna paint you by numbers
and colour you in
if things go right we can frame it, and put you on a wall

And it’s so hard to say it but I’ve been here before
and I will surrender up my heart
and swap it for yours

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
and out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now

I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now

Don’t hold me down
I think my braces are breaking
and it’s more than I can take

And if it’s dark in a cold December,
I’ve got ya to keep me warm
and if you’re broken then I will mend ya
and keep you sheltered from the storm that’s raging on, now

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
and out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now

I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
and out of all these things I’ve done
I will love you better now

I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done
I think I love you better now

I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
and out of all these things I’ve done
I will love you better now

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I can’t forget it,
Though I’ve tried
I know you’ll regret, love
You told me so many times

But, I still wonder
Why…
You left with her
And left me behind

Take your hands off him
Cause he’s the only one that I have ever loved
Please don’t find her skin
When you turn the lights out

I can’t erase it
From my mind
I just replay it, love
I think of it all of the time
But I don’t want to imagine
Words you spoke to her that night
Make your bodies look like porcelain
You both knew I’d be bleeding inside

Did she make your heart beat faster than I could?
Did she give you what you hoped for?
On nights so loveless, love,
I hope it made you feel good
Knowing how much I adored you

Did she make your heart beat faster than I could?
Did she give you what you hoped for?
On nights so loveless, love,
I hope it made you feel good
Knowing how much I adored you

You’re making me sick, love